THE FIRST STEPS

I am putting out my thoughts with great courage , i still feel the fear of being judged and finally preached : How bad it is to be FAT and how i should have been careful and not done what i did to be what I am today.

But I am going to write this blog anyways , because its not about the outside noise anymore but about what truly matters to me.

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“I think I am a pretty chubby wubby girl , who loves Food and Fashion”.

For a break I just want to be who I am now , yes I am overweight and i am trying to train myself into a healthier lifestyle , but i am not going to bog myself down anymore with what family , friends or people want me to be. Yes no doubt they all mean well and i truly appreciate it ,and by no means do i support or profess an unhealthy lifestyle but this constant preaching of how FAT is bad for me and how much better i can be once i loose weight is not letting me enjoy my present moment the way it was meant to be.

So today after another long phone call full of

you need to loose weight

join a gymn

don’t eat out

I felt drained , bitter and angry and like most of the chub-kins sailing in my boat i thought that my life is the most miserable in the world ( I know that’s not true) but that’s what i thought.So i again opened a bag of my trusty friend Lay’s masala and popped a big one in my mouth , Ah the dance the spices did on my tongue instantly made me feel better and with that crunchy munch i almost forgot the conversation , halfway down the bag of chips and already reaching out for my TV  remote now ,I asked myself a rhetorical question ” Why are you doing this to yourself ?”

Well like always I din’t have an answer , only a silent discomfort within,  that needed acceptance and Love .

So i dumped Mr. Lay’s and headed out for a walk , trying to understand what is it that’s holding me from adopting a healthy lifestyle and finally making the big dreams come true.

Well for sure the answer is simpler than i wanted to hear , its lack of self love , yes i know its written on almost every fat girl’s blog who has ever overcome the pounds so in that way I don’t really have anything new to say.

But i know that Acceptance is the first step towards change and i have made peace with my weight and my curves. Now before i decide to hit a gymn , i am going to show some love and acceptance to the inner me that has been tormented all these years not by the criticism it got from others but the constant criticism and comparison inside. I have realized that its truly not the judgement of others that hurt me but my ignorance to my own self that caused me all this pain.

So step 1 to feeling better

Buying some awesome clothes that are fashionable and look good on me , no more baggy Tshirts and kurtas.

After all every girl is a princess and she deserves to be treated well.

Mwah Princess !

Isha 🙂

Plus size shopping Bangkok VLOG 1

Hi guys,

This the first part of my Thailand adventures , come with me as I vlog around bangkok , hunting for plus size clothes in Bangkok , scavenging through Platinum market , krung thong plaza,chatuchak weekend market and exploring the cultural side of bangkok visitng wat pho , Grand palace and savoring the culinary delights.

 

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Thanks

Isha

New Year Resolution : Goal updates Jan end

Hey guys,

This is my month end update for my previous vlog where I made some Pinterest inspired new year resolutions for my 2017 .

January has ended and so I am determined to keep myself on track by sharing my progress with you guys ,wish me luck.

here are links to the books I’ve finished reading

Outwitting the devil by Napleon Hill

The game of life and how to play it by Florence Scovel Shinn

here is a link to my Board you guys should check it out and suggest any good reads you may have

 

Thanks

Isha

Crash Course in being a Fruit Fly

Ok so Why a Fruitfly you ask ? Do you have any idea how awesome the life of a fruitfly is? I mean seriously

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1. It parties all its life well basically on fruits with all its friends and then

2. Has an incredible orgy multiplies in seconds

3. Finally says tata to the world , dying on the sweet nectar of its love “The Fruit”.

Over indulgent ? YES but awesome .

I know its very random but if I could have a favorite pest it would be the fruit fly , while savoring a delicious juicy Summer Indian mango and of course fighting my claim with Ms. Fruitfly it got me thinking how awesome would it be if we all had that one privilege that the fruit fly has “a short life span”,what I mean by a short life span is the knowledge and belief that this is the only time available to you .

So here are

5 lessons learnt from a Fruitfly

1. Savor it like there is no tomorrow

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Ok I won’t go all Master Oogway on you (kung fu panda reference , if you didn’t know) and I am not even close to living each day that way BUT the days that I do, its awesome ! See I know life isn’t perfect but when we are aware of each moment it kinda acts like a protective shield and you are not so vulnerable to the Drama Queen called life but its difficult to be in the moment all the time and that’s when the second point helps.

2. Find the fruit

Yes the legendary “Follow your passion”, see the fruitfly always finds the fruit ,one moment you’ve all chemical cleaned and room sprayed your home and the next moment there is a fruit partay going in that salad bowl,lesson learnt “Always find the fruit”,the most frustrating part sometimes is when you have yet not discovered your passion but be patient and repeat step 1 , gradually you will.Deep deep down we all know what we love even if its still a cloudy faint faraway concept , you know that you know !

3. Do it or Die trying

PERSISTENCE! isn’t that what the fruitfly is made of you shoo it spray it smash it but it keeps coming back and that is the same audacity that you should have when pursuing a goal , you started your diet and exercising and on day 4 fell sick and slipped? well buckle up and get going again ,you failed at this attempt? well no big deal learn from your mistake and do it right this time , there is always a second chance ,Just Do It (Yes deliberately going all NIKE on you)

4 .Make the move

Let’s accept it the fruitfly does not hesitate a second before approaching  others of it kind needless to say the orgy that follows multiplying into swarms in your kitchen then why do you second guess so much , whether its the connection that you feel with this man or the idea that you have been inspired with for a while when the intuitive nudge comes from within don’t hesitate  just act and take the plunge , least it will move you out of inaction.

5. Shit happens get over it

So the fruitfly gets all high on the fruit and had an orgy , 8 days later has 100,000 kids but its like “Eh,whatever come join the party kids”. See you are only human and bound to make mistakes but the longer you repent the shittier you feel about yourself , sabotaging your self esteem will only make it worse , so shake it off and move on even better find the humor in it.

That’s all for today

Signing off

Temponaut

Aztec Nail Art

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So AZTEC has been doing the rounds for quite some time now , it was high time I posted it here .

Now I know that this is a 2012 trend but I wasn’t that fashion literate to understand that trends are time bound , anyways the first time I took notice of this very unique pattern was when I was again overpowered by my split 50’s american self and I could not stop myself from living the era (well mostly coz I was watching The Brady’s Bunch back to back)

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and there was this episode where The Brady’s visit The Grand Canyon and they encounter a native american boy and later meet his family and they were wearing something not typically Aztec but I really liked the intricacy so here it is

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The nail paints that I used for this tutorial

China glaze flip flop fantasy (neon pink)
Colorbar Lime Margarita (light green)
Colorbar #18 Exclusive (dark green)
Colorbar #37 Exclusive (White)
Maybelline COLORAMA Amarelo Sol (yellow)
I mixed the above two to make a pastel creme base
Sally Hansen No more breaks Top coat

If you guys create this pattern then please share your awesomeness with me 🙂

Love

Isha